Into my own

Hello everyone, I am so glade that I have had this opportunity to share my blog with you guy's and let my mind out on screen with out feeling judged. For all those who has followed me and gave me great advice you are very appreciated and I will take your advice and apply it as best as I can. As each day passes I get better with the fear of living out loud, but I wont stop trying to get there. It may seem sad to some of you and I have to admit it was sad to me also in the beginning but fear is a battle that is fought by many of us in this world meaning we all have something we can do without or something we are afraid of. I guess that's what makes us human right! Still moving forward, still giving life my all and still will never give up on my journey for mental freedom and in this journey I am coming into my own. Thanks to you all and good luck with everything. At the end of the term I will tell you what T.O.Y.G stands for and how it saved me in the name of love.

On our last might

Beloved,
many a time i find myself on my last might, trying hard to hold on to God. This week is such a week. But when everything fails i always remind myself that its just a reminder from God that only He matters and has the last say. In Him do we trust. The passage that has held me during this time is Jeremiah 33:3 ....'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'

Writing the 'Test'

"Give thanks to the Lord, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done. Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts" (Psalm 105:1-2).

Randy was running his own business and getting straight A's in college. When I asked how he did it, he said, "It's simple. I write my own test. As I study, I anticipate what will be on the test, and then I write possible questions. When I take the test, I'll know many of the answers because I've already written the questions."

I have a simple test to find out if I am on the right track spiritually each day. God has written it for me in 1 Thessalonians 5:18:"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." I ask myself if I am giving thanks in all circumstances. If I am holding a grudge or worrying or focusing on my own desires, then I am not giving thanks. I am able to be grateful in all situations only if I know that He is with me and is for me because of Jesus. So when I am "failing the test," I simply start giving thanks, and then I am indeed doing God's will for me in Christ Jesus - it's an easy "A."

Promise of Steadfastness

"Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered for ever. He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord" (Psalm 112:6-7).

The King James Version of this passage says "his heart is fixed." Similarly, Isaiah 26:3: You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is fixed on you." This "fixing" of our hearts is the essence of steadfastness.

Job was unwavering in heart when he cried out, "Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him"
(Job13:15). To be fixed is to be like Abraham of whom it is said that when all hope was gone, he still hoped, knowing that God would never let His word fail. God's promises will always be kept.

A story goes that a man walking along a cliff slips over the edge. He clings to a sapling and is hanging over a sheer drop, hundreds of feet. He yells, "Is there anyone up there? Help! Help!" He hears a voice saying, "This is God. Just let go! I will catch you and set you safely on the ground." There is silence and then an even louder, frantic cry: "Is there anyone else up there?"

There is no one else up there and no one else anywhere as steadfast as He!

Promise to Blot Out Our Sins

"...Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to His cross"
(Colossians 2:14, KJV).

I am no computer whiz, but apparently experts have ways of retrieving old memory which has been cancelled on the computer. Some trace is always left behind.

It is not like that for us. The Lord says in Isaiah 1:18, "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow." We might suspect that these days forensics might be able to reveal some staining! Not so, however, because the Lord removes all possible suspicion of that. The Greek word for "blotting out" means wiping a slate, totally obliterating what was there before. Our sins do not belong to us anymore. Our slate is clean. God took them on Himself, nailing them to the cross.

Always ready to beat ourselves up, we then say what about our on-going sinfulness? Martin Luther said, "The remnant of sin is not laid to our charge but freely pardoned. Sometimes we fall into sin, yet we are not discouraged and must not think that our state of life displeases God lest we despair, but we raise ourselves up through faith!"

Poor Promises, Good Promises

The essence of trusting God's promises is trusting the God who makes them. In the rather nihilistic film "Revolutionary Road," someone says to the principal character, "You have put your trust in
a promise no one ever made to you." That is a broken reed indeed!

Many put their trust in human promises. For instance, the remedies from self-help literature promise the earth and do not deliver. The thing about God is that He is the only one who can always deliver. He has the will, and He has the power to perform His promises. The 18th Century English writer, William Romaine, wrote to a friend, "As I was going along the road, I heard a voice saying, 'CEASE YE FROM MAN, from yourself, from others: put no confidence in them. Put not your trust in princes, not in any child of man, be he wise, or great, or good. Nay, look not at them, but with a single eye, look unto Jesus.'"

He set out on a new path of not heeding other promises but only the promises of God.

God's Gracious Promises

"For if those who live by law are heirs, faith has no value and the promise is worthless...Therefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace..." (Romans 4:14, 16).

Human promises are fallible. All denominations of English pound notes bear the caption "The Bank of England promises to pay the bearer on demand the sum of __ pounds." Especially in the current economic climate, they are unlikely to be of the same value in the future as they are today.

God's promises are gracious. That is, there is nothing we can do to earn them. God's gift of eternal life in His Son is all of grace (Great
Riches At Christ's Expense).

The new covenant with us is not a contract: God does something for us if we do something reciprocal for Him. I spent a large part of my early career in a business based on contractual relationships. No, Christ loved us and died for us when we were still sinners. That is the graciousness of God's dealing.

The Christian life is all about God's promises to us, not about our promises to Him. He is the Promise Keeper while our New Year resolutions fade before January is out! "If we are faithless, he will remain faithful" (2 Timothy 2:13).